Sunday, May 11, 2008

She knows best



I remember reading an interview someone held with President Hinckley and when asked what the church does with their women…President Hinckley responded, “What do we do? We get out of there way!” I have always loved that humorous, but very sincere reply. I think of that exactly when I think of my mother...she usually knows best.
Words always flash in my mind when I ponder the word Mother. Sacrifice, Pure Love, Comfort, Constant, Provider, Gentle, Firm, Knowledgeable, Determined, Leader, Example, Guardian Angel, Available, Selfless....all things that without a doubt encompass all that my mother is. “Motherhood,” they wrote, “is near to divinity. It is the highest, holiest service to be assumed by mankind. It places her who honors its holy calling and service next to the angels.” In 1935 the First Presidency stated, “The true spirit of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints gives to woman the highest place of honor in human life” (in Messages of the First Presidency, 6:5).
I can’t wait for the day I can be a mother and share those unimaginable gifts with my husband. I have tried many times to imagine what the trials, blessings, fears, and joys of being a mother must be like and I know I always fall short. It is something that must needs be experienced I believe. Preparation and all the imagining in the world won’t do, some things make us grow the most when we know we cannot do it alone even if we strongly desire to. This is one of those things, where we constantly will humbly turn to our heavenly parents, and acknowledge that our children were actually his before they ever were ours and he knows them best.
"When you have come to the Lord in meekness and lowliness of heart and, as one mother said, “pounded on the doors of heaven to ask for, to plead for, to demand guidance and wisdom and help for this wondrous task,” that door is thrown open to provide you the influence and the help of all eternity. Claim the promises of the Savior of the world. Ask for the healing balm of the Atonement for whatever may be troubling you or your children. Know that in faith things will be made right in spite of you, or more correctly, because of you. Jeffrey R. Holland, “‘Because She Is a Mother’,” Ensign, May 1997, 35
I look up and admire all of the women in my family who are mothers, and even wives. I look to them for guidance although they may not know it. I look to them for examples, advice, strength, and out of that comes pure hope that I will be able to have that much humility and determination when it is my turn.
I realize I don’t have much authority on this matter, because of the simple fact that I am not yet a mother. I guess I am struggling right now on focusing on getting there so that I can be the mother I know I promised to be. One huge element that factors in is to marry a worthy priesthood holder to support my role as a mother and a wife. I in turn will strive to do the same.
"For this supernal gift of life the priesthood should have love unbounded for the mothers of their children. Men should give them honor, gratitude, reverence, respect, and praise. A man who fails to gratefully acknowledge his debt to his own mother who gave him life is insensitive to the Holy Spirit. I wish to acknowledge to both my mother and my wife a debt which is so great I shall never be able to repay it.In conclusion, I wish to repeat that I do not believe that God’s purposes on earth will ever be achieved without the influence, strength, love, support, and special gifts of the elect women of God. They are entitled to our deepest veneration, our fullest appreciation, and our most profound respect. I believe angels attend them in their motherly ministry. That we may so honor them...James E. Faust, “The Highest Place of Honor,” Ensign, May 1988, 36
I hope that together with my husband we can do just that….I was lucky enough to be blessed with an amazing mom who was also a teacher (professionally). She raised me to believe in the power of my own progress despite what the doctors told her of my mental disabilities. My mom is one giant miracle that happens to me every day. I love her and will always seek to repay the debt that I am afraid is impossible to repay.
"No teaching is equal, more spiritually rewarding, or more exalting than that of a mother teaching her children."Boyd K. Packer - Ensign, Feb. 2000, 16
"There are some lines attributed to Victor Hugo which read:“She broke the bread into two fragments and gave them to her children, who ate with eagerness. ‘She hath kept none for herself,’ grumbled the sergeant.“ ‘Because she is not hungry,’ said a soldier.“ ‘No,’ said the sergeant, ‘because she is a mother.’ ”
One day I hope to fully be able to understand and relate to these two passages that I found while searching through some of the ensigns. I guess to end I will just past the quote that kind of tied everything I was reading together in my mind…I honestly know that mothers and the role they play in the lives of everyone is a divine part of the plan the Heavenly Father created for all of his children. I know that he loves us enough to give us these lights, and guides, to nurture us and keep us alive until the day comes where we fully choose for ourselves, and so that we can use that agency to return back to him if we are willing to put that faith in him now. “Yours is the grand tradition of Eve, the mother of all the human family, the one who understood that she and Adam had to fall in order that “men [and women] might be, and that there would be joy. Yours is the grand tradition of Sarah and Rebekah and Rachel, without whom there could not have been those magnificent patriarchal promises to Abraham, Isaac, and Jacob which bless us all. Yours is the grand tradition of Lois and Eunice and the mothers of the 2,000 stripling warriors. Yours is the grand tradition of Mary, chosen and foreordained from before this world was, to conceive, carry, and bear the Son of God Himself. We thank all of you, including our own mothers, and tell you there is nothing more important in this world than participating so directly in the work and glory of God, in bringing to pass the mortality and earthly life of His daughters and sons, so that immortality and eternal life can come in those celestial realms on high. Jeffrey R. Holland, “‘Because She Is a Mother’,” Ensign, May 1997, 35
"Remember, remember all the days of your motherhood: “Ye have not come thus far save it were by the word of Christ with unshaken faith in him, relying wholly upon the merits of him who is mighty to save.”
"Rely on Him. Rely on Him heavily. Rely on Him forever. And “press forward with a steadfastness in Christ, having a perfect brightness of hope.” 11 You are doing God’s work. You are doing it wonderfully well. He is blessing you and He will bless you, even—no, especially—when your days and your nights may be the most challenging. Like the woman who anonymously, meekly, perhaps even with hesitation and some embarrassment, fought her way through the crowd just to touch the hem of the Master’s garment, so Christ will say to the women who worry and wonder and sometimes weep over their responsibility as mothers, “Daughter, be of good comfort; thy faith hath made thee whole.” 12 And it will make your children whole as well. –elder James E. Faust

Thursday, May 8, 2008

GIFTS? What GIFTS?

To explain why I even decided to study on gifts and talents might take some time, but to keep it brief, I have always felt like I fell short in that area. More than fell short I have always felt like my gifts and talents were nothing more and nothing less than non-existent.
I really was tempted to take a spiritual gifts test that consisted of 140 questions on line to tell you which ones pertain to you....but I chose to just begin somewhere a little more...not 140 questions long...hhahah
To start out I looked up the word gift in the bible dictionary only because when you have no idea what you are studying the dictionary is your safest bet.
Right next to the word GIFT had other "see also" words. For example; Bribery (one of my favorites), contribution, grace, offering, present, talents. I didn't want to focus on gifts one can give such as gold, money, chocolates, food (which is what I usually use as bribery):) I wanted to focus on talents, and spiritual gifts.
I am already aware of the great spiritual gifts that are out there, and those talents that are both spiritual talents and show talents. I however am trying to discover what talent or gift I am suppose to have. I was dead set on not having any, convinced that Heavenly Father gave me the gift of making everyone else look good because of my lack thereof. I don't want to settle with that so I will continue until I find at least one more...or half of one.
Doctrine and Covenants 46:11 says, "For all have not every gift given unto them; for there are many gifts, and to every man is given a gift by the Spirit of God." If I could identify one weakness it is that I do wish I had every gift, but it is clearly not going to happen, but it does say I have to at least have one. Right?
Rather than trying to unbury my own gifts it may be easier to start with the gifts that are so easy to identify in those around me.
Amber is talented at way too many things and that is why I'm glad she's the bigger sister. She can handle uncanny amounts of stress all at the same time. She has a gift for being a mother and a friend at the same time. The gift of achievement plagues her...and she pulls through always almost as if it were effortless.
Melissa has the obvious gift of music, she can write music, play music, sing music, anything that has to do with music she not only does it, but defines it. The greatest thing about this gift/talent is that she always shares her testimony of christ which is another one of her greatest gifts.
Jared has an intellectual talent and it's one I've always admired. This gift is one that has made him question his testimony, but also strengthen it in the end. One gift I have always admired is being quick to observe ( David A. Bednar, “Quick to Observe,” Ensign, Dec 2006, 30–36)
"Thus when we are quick to observe, we promptly look or notice and obey. Both of these fundamental elements—looking and obeying—are essential to being quick to observe. And the prophet Mormon is an impressive example of this gift in action." So, Jared may not totally have the obeying part down, but....:)
Riley has the gift and talent of standing steadfast and firm in his beliefs. He is a passionate person and will fight until the death if he truly believes in something. He doesn't back down and is my prime example.
My niece is one giant walking talent/gift. I've said this too many times, but she heals people, just by being herself. I don't know how she does it, but not all gifts can be explained right?
Every person in my family has overflowing gifts, maybe if I stand close enough I can absorb the left overs.
Somehow I still don't feel like I have talents or gifts to share and to help contribute to the church, or to those that surround me, but something occurred to me after reading a few talks. One was that many spiritual gifts can be highlighted or brought to the surface if desired with a pure heart. "We, too, can receive the gifts of the Spirit our Heavenly Father wants us to enjoy as we seek them earnestly, thank him for our blessings,"-David Bednar (apostle of the church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints). Another way I could obtain certain gifts is to remember why Heavenly Father blesses us with gifts. It is not for our benefit and shouldn't be used to our benefit, but to serve those around us... “practise virtue and holiness before [him]” (D&C 46:32–33), and remember why he gives such marvelous gifts to his children.
“Seek ye earnestly the best gifts, always remembering for what they are given” (D&C 46:8). So all I really have to do is SEEK for these gifts, and really find out why they are so inclined to hide from me...
I guess just to end this pretty scattered entry I will leave it up to Elder Bednar and let him sum it up...because after all conlcuding and ending anything is not one of my gifts.
David A. Bednar, “The Tender Mercies of the Lord,” Ensign, May 2005, 99
I testify that the tender mercies of the Lord are available to all of us and that the Redeemer of Israel is eager to bestow such gifts upon us. Through personal study, observation, pondering, and prayer, I believe I have come to better understand that the Lord’s tender mercies are the very personal and individualized blessings, strength, protection, assurances, guidance, loving-kindnesses, consolation, support, and spiritual gifts which we receive from and because of and through the Lord Jesus Christ. Truly, the Lord suits “his mercies according to the conditions of the children of men” (D&C 46:15).

Sunday, May 4, 2008

The List







"LIFE HAPPENS WHEN YOU ARE BUSY MAKING PLANS."

So true, and yet I always find myself second guessing the answers I have recieved that undoubtedly are from Heavenly Father.
The semester just ended and I find myself staying in the one place I despised so much at first. Is it growing on me? Maybe. I feel nervous, but excited to be starting something new. I have no idea what that something new is, I just hope it's something worth doing, or being a part of.
I am not quite sure what to write on these blog thingys. I could start with just what's on my mind. It's almost been a year, 12 months, 365 days, (however you want to put it) since I have returned from serving a full time mission. I can honestly say it has been a bittersweet experience, somedays more bitter than others and some more sweet. It's always helpful for me to look at accomplishments or "firsts" that I have had since coming home, just to take away a little bit of the homesick feeling. instead of making a list of the things I miss more than anything in the world I will list things that are part of the present, things that have happened over the year I have been home.
*I have made new friends and family (you know who you are :)


*I have volunteered a lot at a battered womens shelter
*I got to see my grandma one last time before she left this life.
*Went cliff jumping
*Road trips to the Vegas Temple
*Learned to crochette
*Went to conference for the first time
*Met Ramon
*Said goodbye to my bestfriend
*Went to the Manti temple
*Fell in love
*Wakeboarded
*Went to a luau with my neice
*Passed the GPT :)
*The pumpkin walk
*Recieved a mini elephant
*Made a quilt
*Played human checkers
*Held my new niece and nephew
*attended my first institute class
*Missing my best friend my ultimate companion...you still hold part of my heart.
*Made witches brew with my family
*Ate soup and ribs with my hands
*Learned the cha cha
*Defended my testimony
*Shared my testimony
This list is probably endless, but just wanted to name a few that stuck out in my mind. The funny thing is there were plenty of huge things I did and the small things are what really stuck with me. Some on the list seem a little tainted with sadness, but when I look at the big picture I cannot say it didn't turn out for the good. It's hard to look at the big picture, it's easier to just trust Heavenly Father, and know that I have the choice, and he can turn the choices into something beautiful if I make worthy decisions.
I hope that next year when I make another list, there will be more significant accomplishments, I plan to make a difference. Save the world, for at least one person. Maybe a more worthy goal should be not to save someone, but help them save themselves. I always somehow change in the process or learn more about myself...we'll see what happens.
To kick off my summer I went to a temple wedding to see one of my bestfriends and her husband be sealed for eternity, move into a house, got my heart broken, listened to the prophet speak, and started a blog...and...imagine that all in one weekend. :)
I have big plans for the summer...all the while hoping life will happen and that it will be to my advantage...all good intentions implied.



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